It's either I choose to live in denial, or that I have a pretty good delusional mind.
I keep in my heart an image of a flawless man refusing to acknowledge the fact that people DO change over the years.

The uncertainty is killing me and I'm in no position to judge.
But if what is being speculated is true, this would be the first that you've broken my heart.

Time will tell, and till then..I will not interfere.
I'm sorry.

This is for the times that you brought many lovers together, patched many broken hearts and made many, smile. This is for the times that you made me and Ket share laughter and tears.

One for the road.
Semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmatNYA, Achik.
Al-Fathiha.

Baby, you stretch my patience a lil bit more and you're gonna wake up a sleeping giant. Please spare me some of this heartache, i'd rather pain and tears then being left feeling.....empty.

***

Why make someone a priority when you're nothing but an option in their lives?

"All my friends used to tell me about how things might work out with these dipsticks because they knew someone, who knew someone, who dated a dipstick just like mine. That girl ended up getting married and living happily ever after. That's the exception and we're not the exception..we're the rule."

***

I'm exhausted.
Of giving myself reasons why you're not calling, cooking up excuses why you're not texting or consoling myself how busy you are at work that you get home too exhausted to even reply my msn chat.

You're not the same guy I know anymore and I'm turning into a madly paranoid woman for all the wrong reasons. I dont want to stop trying but if you dont show me a reason good enough to continue fighting, I might just raise the white flag. The stakes are too high for this one, baby.

It doesnt mean I love you any lesser,
it probably just means its for the better.
I miss you.

***

"So trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit.
No exceptions."
- He's just not that into you.

Adimuska says:
nurul huda binte jasman
Adimuska says:
sila tampil ke hadapan
∂ινασƒѕσяяσω® says:
why am i always on trial?
Adimuska says:
awk didapati bersalah
Adimuska says:
kerana awk berjaya memikat hati saya
Adimuska says:
dari itu saya jatuh kan hukuman terhadap awak
Adimuska says:
awk akan dipenjara kan seumur hidup di dalam hati saya
Adimuska says:
muktamad

∂ινασƒѕσяяσω® says:
SAYA BANGKANG BANGKANG!
Adimuska says:
kenapa bangkang
∂ινασƒѕσяяσω® says:
pasal yang arif. terms & conditions cuma mengatakannnnn bahawa defendant hanya harus berjumpa plaintiff before nature can take its course
∂ινασƒѕσяяσω® says:
kenapa defendant didapati bersaLah terlalu awal yg arif?
Adimuska says:
Jikalau bergitu
Adimuska says:
mahkahmah di tangguh
Adimuska says:
mahkahmah memberi tempoh pada si persalah
Adimuska says:
dan yg disalah untuk berjumpa
Adimuska says:
sekian wassalam

Adimuska says:
Saya Zaidi Aziz
Adimuska says:
suka kepada cik Nurul Huda
Adimuska says:
saya amat tertarik daripada wajah nye yg "sweet" dan bentuk badannye yg "montel"
Adimuska says:
dan setelah beramah mesra
Adimuska says:
di telepon kepunyaan arwah ibu saya
Adimuska says:
saya turut senang berbual mesra dgnye
Adimuska says:
sehingga saya tak sadar
Adimuska says:
yg saya memarahi nye tak tentu pasal
Adimuska says:
ibarat kan menembaknye dgn berdas das tembakan air pistol
Adimuska says:
walaupon hanya berapa hari kenalan
Adimuska says:
kita masih ada lagi hari untuk mengenal isi hati masing2
Adimuska says:
sekiranye esok tiada
Adimuska says:
saya cuma mengharap dan mendoakan agar di temui di syurga
Adimuska says:
the end
∂ινασƒѕσяяσω® says:
insyaALLAH.
∂ινασƒѕσяяσω® says:
*rolls credits*
Adimuska says:
*MuskaCorp productions*

***

and THIS is the ADI i miss so dearly.
We've gone far, are we still who we are?

Sometimes,
all I want is to cuddle at the end of a tiring day with someone trustworthy.
Nothing fancy, just you and me.
Snuggled in the cold, close.

That's why I settle with Joo.
He is the MOST trustworthy male species anyone could ever find nowadays.

Could have done better,
But I'm thankful.

Alhamdulillah.