"lion king chose a perfect boy to be his best friend..
..someone so hot, someone retained."

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i've been certified mad today.

i wouldn't try to deny that.
i realised that i've been thinking aloud, thus getting words that are not supposed to be heard by others out of my mouth before i can stop it. i've been checking out men and rating them like a bitch. huda doesnt do that okayyy. that might be her evil twin or probably her alter ego. huda is a nice girl. -_-"

i've been complaining non-stop of how school is sucha chore now (with the temp taking and tapping cards to EVERYWHERE we go) i understand its for safety measures and yes, thank you for taking precautions but i can't help but feel....restricted, with no sense of freedom.

especially for me who doesnt have much of it to start with.
sometimes, when your most comfortable place is no longer your safe haven. when you mingle with hypocrites where you have to constantly check your backs to make sure knives dont hit you. when you live your life in constant fear of going wrong. you tend to go insane.

and the fact that my eyes and heart cannot stop searching for a familiar face in the sea of people is not making it any better. i search for you everyday. every single chance i get. its maddening to know something will never come but still hope for it.

oh dear heart, please give up already.

i thank ALLAH, for all i've got.